It's been a while since I last got inspired by anything other than from Plato, Descarte or some other form of Cartesians theology or anything from Foucault or Marxist's theory. Come to think about it, I am still quite clueless as to what all that were mentioned above are.... I suppose I will have a lifetime to figure out what they were talking about, or better yet; I'll just wipe them all clean as soon as I graduate.
Was You-tubing a couple days back when I heard Miley Cyrus, The Climb. For some reason, that song kinda soften me a little. Not so much of the music more of the lyric I suppose. A kind and gentle reminder that somehow I have more obstacles in front waiting for me and that if I think this is bad, there are worst.... Yeap, I'm a cynical sadist. I am currently lamenting on the death of my journalistic writing. No more flowery metaphors, or interesting acronyms. My creative writing has officially been killed. Everything that I am writing now seem to be formal and structured. To be honest, I hate it. Whatever happen to all my beautiful words of insults and sarcastic comments.
I feel so mellow right now. Cant bring myself to do anything. Plato's reading is the last thing I feel like doing, but I have to. Ah, if only the philosophers realize that forcing does not bring any good to anyone. Since they are so enlightened they should have realize this fact by now. I would really like to go back in time and point this out to them. What were they thinking? Why can't they just live like any normal average person instead of coming up far-fetched theories to make sense of life. Life does not make sense, period, never did, never will. Why ask questions when you do not and cannot have an answers for? Why do we have to categorize everything in this world? Why do we have to define everything we do? Can't we just do something because we do... How can we make sense of things, when in the first place it does not make sense.
Oh yea, I am not exactly making all these questions up. We actually did discuss these questions in class. If you are thinking that we are having some kind of heart-felt conversations with each other, you are dead wrong. Because as my lecturer puts it, "the questions itself is wrong, how can you possibly answer it then" Or better yet, "We are not stupid because we do not know the answer, the question is not stupid itself, but the answer itself is stupid."
Right, we have wrong questions and stupid answers in life. If this is what enlightenment feels like, I want no part of it. After all, ignorance is bliss.
Aren't we a confused bunch...
Currently listening to: Olivia Lufkin - Winter Sleep (highly recommended)
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Inspired
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Whose fault is it?
When you are in a situation where by, you think everyone hates you; whose fault is it?
To be honest, I've experienced it. Truth is, I blamed does around me, thinking that the world was out to get me. And then, *yes, I got enligtened* I took a step and think. If there are 10 people in the room, and all of them hated me; maybe the problem isn't them, but me. Rasionally speaking, I do not think that people would hate someone for no reason. But, if you think that you have done no wrong; in that case maybe you should just let it go and move on...
I believe my own words, nobody would hate somebody unless provoked. In my case, I do not hate, but I grew weary and tired. There's is only so many times you want to get lashed at. To bite the hand that fed you, one would prolly have to realize that while some people might be out there to get you, some are trying to help. They say, having too much of a good thing is not neccassary a good thing. True, self preservation is important, but too much of it would shut even those who are trying to help. If my good intentions cause you pain, I apologize. In my defense, I honestly say that I am only trying to help you, because I want to know you, because I want to care; but since that is not what you see. I will gladly back-off, let you resume your life, and even then you still hate me; well, too bad. I have done all I could, if you are sick and tired of me, then I am feed-up and I give up on you.
There's already much pain in this world, let's not add to it. I don't mind starting all over again, if you promise to let me help you.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Confused human beings....
Should you have read from my previous blog from Window's Live you would notice that the phrase " Human beings are confused beings" is one of my favourite tagline. And they ARE! Human beings have to confuse and complicate themselves just to make life harder than it already is. Even something as simple as eating rojak, going out, wine drinking and even eating.
Like i say, Make UP your mind people! If you know from the begining that you don't like nuts in your rojak, tell the vendor you don't want them. Don't wait till everything is mixed up and then you tell the vendor to pick out the nuts one by one. Do you know how annoying is dat...VERY!
Something as simple as buying something, choose and then pay la! IF the thing broke or "hilang" you either have a choice to buy a new one, or just forget about it! Don't tell me that you want the old one back because that is not going to happen, it's gone....End of story, accept it! I am not going to get you a new one, or glue the thing back for you, because i am not in the position to do that, i am not your boyfriend or your father or husband or whichever that applies to you. So, grow up and stop being a baby. Don't come and complicate my life waling that you want the same thing but you want the old want and then you refuse to accept the broken one but you dun want a new one! Because my LIFE is already complicated with so many other people in it, complicating things for me every day with every single thing. Am i confusing you already? Just accept that the thing is broken already ok, don't threaten me or annoy me, because only I ANNOY ppl, and i DUN LIKE being threaten!
Jesus, i need peace! OR I am going to give you a piece of my mind! Feel free to comment once your head stop spinning.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Happy Birthday to ME!
Haha, don't worry...I am not crazy i know my birthday is not due till the end of the year!
But, honestly, have you ever forgotten someone's bday? I know i have, infact i even nearly forgot my best friend's bday...Hmm, i know i am not exactly a good friend when it comes to bday. But, i dun think i will ever forget one person's bday. No, this person is NOT my best friend, not close to me as well. The only reason why i will remember this person's bday is because they publicised it...LOUDLY!
I mean, i know its your bday and you wan people to be happy for you (Happy for you getting old?!) Besides, Birthdays are a merry occasion, it's ok if you remind people or inform them once...it will do. Twice a day, is still bearable, three times a day is an act of desperation, more than that is just plain lame and pathetic! I mean, eh hello friend, you got no one else to celebrate bday with you is it? Have to remind people to buy present to you, and send sms's to other people which says "Happy Birthday to me", just because they forgot to wish you?! @_@
What do i look like Santa Clause? I mean, even Santa Clause also has his own requirements. Naughty or nice *Crosses of mean people frm the list*, *glee, glee, evil grin*...
