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I feel tired, happy, sad, dissapointed,annoyed, worried, hyper and for some reason boredom and confusion. So, it's hard to say which one of them is stronger at the moment but I feel all of them at once...Anyone could go nuts when they expereince so many emotions at once.

I am finally hired, started working yesterday with the pay of 17 AUD per hour on normal week days and 20AUD for weekends. Yay! This is where I feel happy. But after walking for long stretch of hours for 3 consecutive days, my legs feel like they dun belong to me anymore, every step hurts, my back, my head everywhere hurts...Thank God I don't have a shift for another 3 days, if I do...I can die before I even receive me pay.

I am worried of my results, my friends, my family and what might come along the way that might disrupt my peaceful life. But usually I am either in an ok mood, happy and hyper, to utmost frustration... mood swings. The valid reason and excuse of all this, which I am going to use it to my advantage is because I am a girl.

I feel like I am living in my own world now, where I only have to be bothered of what concerns me most. There are times when I think I am being too self-centered or selfish. Which reminds me when a certain someone once asked me if I find her selfish. I told her no, but i thought yes in my heart. Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike this person and all...But the truth is, everyone in this world is selfish. Everyone, because no matter how giving you are as a person there will be times when you consider yourself as a priority. Selfish in my context, as long as you don't overdo it too much, I call it self-defence and self-preservation.

So yea, I can be mean and unconsiderate at times. But if by doing that, I can make myself happier, make my life easier and this is the important part, it doesn't hurt anyone physically and mentally wise...I think it's ok. There you go, my definition of selfish and self-centeredness. Hah!