Why...

Why is it that we reach out to help the people around us? Why is it that we have to be nice to other people around us eventhough they hurt us? These people will talk behind our back, say one thing and mean the other...Come to think about it, how many friends are there in our life that is really and truly sincere to us. How long would it take for a person to finally see through another's intention towards them...What if a person has an ill intention to help you, or if a person is truly reaching out for you because they care? How do we know, how can we tell.

I use to ask the people that is close to me, what do they think of me...The answers that they gave are by no means heart wrenching...cause I make mistakes too, i get that and i appreciate their honest answers and believe it or not I thank them and i bore no hatred towards those who gave me an honest opinion. But i suppose as we grow older it becomes harder and harder to get an honest answer from that question, other than those that comes out of a really close friend who kindly remind you that you are running of track or those from your parents (which no matter how they phrase still manage to anger you, eventhough u know that it's for your own good).

What does it means to confide in someone, it means to let something of your chest because it is bottling up inside you, and u expect the person you tell them to keep that piece of information to themselves, not blab it about because that is not what a friend do. The only reason you know what I told you is because i trust you, not because I want you to be a messenger, if i wan that person to know how I feel I can tell them myself, thank you very much! ( Kinda piss at this person because this is not the first time these kind of things is happening already, what do you think you are playing at!)I am just thankful that no damage has been done, but don;t expect me to tell you anything personal from now on...

Okla, actually the whole thing is because i was thinking too much. Must be the stress of the assignments that is pilling up. But the last part about this person is seriosuly pissing me off, thank God i did not tell this person some top secret stuff, imagine if I did *shudders*

Don't worry folks, this is not as serious as it sounds...actually I wanted to write a philosophy out of this but i suppose it's too late to think of more fansy pansy kind of language at this hour...Haha