Celebrations....

I no longer remember the last time I have ever properly celebrated my birthday. Not for as long as I can remember. The method of celebration is often or not the same, going out for lunch or dinner or maybe tea. Then there were presents and also the well- wishers. I have to say I greatly appreciate that.

But to be honest, while I enjoy celebrating birthdays for my frieds, I have never quite enjoy mine being celebrated, I don' know why, but since 12 or so, I have stop wanting to celebrating it and looking forward to this date. The only time where I actually realize its my birthday, most often or not is because I share the same date with a few of my friends, and also because most of my friends birthday tends to fall in October.

I appreciate the effort that my friends would want to celebrate my birthday with me, but I don't need or want a celebration. Many of those that are close to me is aware of this fact, and I did my best to let those around know that I do not wish to celebrate this date.

This year, being the first year being overseas, naturally my housemates out ot good intentions wanted to celebrate this date with me, as usual I try to worm my way out of it, I decline it as it comes. Trust me when I say that I appreciate the effort, I do! For some reason, they are hurt by the fact, I know that, I can tell, afterall I might be blurr but I am not an idiot.

I know, I might be selfish or whatever you want to call it, but afterall it is my birthday, you have asked me so many times how I wanted to celebrate, I have told you so many times, that I don't want to celebrate, that I want it to be just another day. I understand your intentions, I get it and I truly greatly appreciate it. But, you see, I don't wish for anything for my birthday, I don't want anything, no presents, no gifts, no surprises....Just a normal day, a day when everything can go right. I know, I'm weird, but that is what I want. Is that too much to ask for my birthday?