Fragile

The day went by without much damage, safe for the fact that I am bored. You see, i would only start working only after 2 weeks. There goes 2 weeks of the money that i would have earned had I been working.

Then, a friend of my heard a news that one of her friend had passed away, the guy was not even 20. I could always come up with advise for many situation, but some how I could find none to give in this situation. Not when I have gone through this myself, i know how that felt, and I wasn't even that close to my friend, it still hurts. This friend of mine said that it's not fair; but then again life itself is not fair, never was, never will be; such is the harsh reality.

She said that, there wasn't enough time to say good bye. But then again, there will never be enough time to say good bye; I personally hate permanent good byes. Therefore, we should always part on good terms. It has always been a kind of "rule" for me to not stay mad at anyone, safe for those that did something I can never forgive; although I do try.

Come to think about it, life is too short to hate anyone, too short for our silly antics, too short for anger. I certainly do not want to be remembered as someone of an idiot. I hope I am not one. We grieve for othe ones that have left us, cursing that they left us too soon, too unprepared/; but will we ever be prepared when they leave? We grieve for them because we care, and we hate the grieve and the pain that ther absense have left us, we hate that we would not see them again. Yet, we wonder, when we died, will anyone be sad enough to miss us, will they grieve for us. On the other hand, we hate to see the people that we care for so much to be put in that situation.

It is surprising how one news can just ruin your entire day, surprising that after a while even when they are gone things seem to go on normally, the world still rotates around the sun, people would still go on their daily lives as if nothing had happen. We go on with our lives with the memory that a person is taken away from our midst. This is the truth, life goes on regardless what befalls us. No one can leave without anyone, reality harsher and more cruel than anything I have known.

It is so easy, to take a life away. Maybe that is why they say that life is precious, it is fragile. Maybe, that is why they say that we should treasure every moment we have and that we should live for the present and not for the past. That is why we should never get angry with someone for too long. That is also why we should only remeber the good, not that we should forget the bad, but we should learn to remember the good things that the people around us had done for us, we can complain about the mistakes they have done, but we should not dwell on those. It takes time to built a relationship that will last a long time, it is too easy to break that bond and get hurt.

Life, what matters in the end, is not how long we have lived, but what we do while we are alive. The fact that we hurt, laugh and cry is because we are alive and because we can think and remember. Therefore, remember the good, because life is too short to dwell on our mistakes.